Is this a state or is this your fate?

I went to church this morning. At first I wasnt going to go, but I'm glad that I did.
It was Women's Day and there were a lot of awards given out and things that took up a lot of time. I was about to get up and walk out because it was just going too long. The guest minister didnt begin preaching almost until 130. I thought church started at 1030, but it didn't start until 11. So I was very early.

The message's text was taken from Ephesians 3:20. Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us,

She talked about God being able to do the things we ask of Him to do. She asked the question that got me thinking: Is this your state or is this your fate? If you look at your life right now and look at your circumstances, you need to make a decision and figure out is this just a point in your life or is this how God wants you to live. Is this just a temporary state...a time that may seem devastating; like you have hit rock bottom. OR is this the life that you will continue to live.

I dont want this time period to be my fate.

As I showered this morning I was thinking about believing God without a shadow of a doubt. I was thinking to myself that I have more than just a shadow of doubt over the things that are going on in my life...I have full fledged doubt...not a shadow of it. I know that God is able, but will He do it for me? That has always been a question in my life. I know that He can, but will He do it for me? I have tried to lose weight in the past but feel like I have constantly failed at it. I need God to show me that He will do it for me. I have fasted and prayed for God to restore the years that I have sown in tears. Although I'm just about to turn 30, I have been through a lot in my lifetime. But I keep thinking: Will He do it for me?

I listened to her sermon and usually I take notes, but today I didnt. I just listened. Even with doubt in my heart, I listened. After she preached, she gave a call for people with problems to come to the alter. Of course I wasnt going down... I stayed in my seat. She kept calling for people to come down and before I knew it, almost all of the people were at the alter. So, I walked on down. She prayed for everyone as a group.
As everyone was walking back to their seats, the preacher walked up to me and said "You need to believe that He will do it for you. You've got to believe that He will do it for you." She said it twice and I said thanks and went back to my seat. I was holding back tears.

God had just spoken to me.

I've got to believe that something positive will come from all of this pain and that God will get the glory. I dont know how all of this will play out, but it will and I have to remember that not only is God able to do all things, but believe that He will do it for me.